Facebook reminded me today that it’s been 5 years since I left my full-time employed role as an Executive Assistant and became self-employed.
And approximately 2 months before the pandemic greatly impacted my business, I reshared the memory the first time, titling the post (a photo of the desk setup at the home I shared with my best friend) “where it started”.
I had no idea what was in store.
I had no idea that the next 2 years would be my becoming – largely through my unbecoming.
I had no idea that the next 2 years would see me ending all contracts with current clients, embarking on a journey to recover from burnout and to heal past trauma, experiencing another bout of depression (freeze-state), learning how to regulate my nervous system, and completely reimagining how my business is going to be moving forwards – how my life is going to be.
I had no idea that 5 years later I would be looking back in hindsight with deep love and gratitude for the last 2 years, and for myself – for not giving up, for choosing to heal, for doing the work, for staying committed to myself and to my desires, for choosing and committing to a more easeful, more soul-fulfilling way, and for trusting myself.
I have soulful, expansive plans for the next 2 of years. Soulful, expansive goals and desires. Soulful, expansive, easeful, joyful – with a totally different perspective, a different way of doing the things, a different approach – one that is aligned for me, one that I trust.
I trust myself. I trust that no matter what happens next I will trust myself, again and again.
Thank you to 26 year-old me for the decisions you made. And for every decision you made before and after which have led me to now.
I love you. Here’s to the next 2 years baby.
P.s. I recently accepted a part-time role, for numerous reasons, which is the first time I’ll be “employed” in 5 years – just know, that no matter how you choose to run your business and whatever you decide to do on your journey to heal, expand and grow it’s all perfect if it’s perfect for you. There is no right or wrong. You are not wrong.